Saturday, October 22, 2011

I'm sad. I hoping this will help me vent. Or It'll make me feel worse, we'll see.

Have you ever had a really big fight with a best friend?
yes, it was silly.

If you could spend more time with someone you used to be very close with, who?
</3
  
Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
if only.
    
What are you doing tonight?
nothing. like always.
  
Do you have any plans for the weekend?
never.
  
How are you right now?
angsty, clearly.
  
What are you tired of?
being by myself :/ i'm not cut out for this.
  
Is there something right now that has you worried?
lol, mmm just the track of my life.
 
When was the last time you were truly, completely happy with your life?
probably like two years ago.

Do you think you will be in a relationship two months from now?
HA.
 
Are you a mean person?
i'm too nice for my own good.

Is there anything you want to get tattooed on you?
now, please.
   
Was Halloween good for you last year?
Only if you count being dead as good -__-
  
Reason for the last tear shed?
gr, welp if you could see my face right now...just sad.

If you could go back in time how far back would you go?
junior year.
  
Do you tell people you're okay when you're really not?
clearly i throw my feelings everywhere, lol.
  
Do you believe "drunken words are sober thoughts"?
most of the time i like to think so. especially tonight.
 
What are you excited about?
leakycon 2012.
   
Do you hold grudges or do you forgive and forget?
I hold grudges. for a long time.
  
Is this year the best year of your life?
not at all.

How do you feel about Dr Pepper?
emily.

Do you have a box where you keep all your important things?
I do.

How many times have you dyed your hair?
about 5? 6 tomorrow.
    
A book ever made you cry?
lol, do you know me?

Your phone rings, what do you say?
thank you for calling payless, how can i help you -___-
  
What is your biggest fear?
not getting married/not be able to have babies

nope, just made me feel worse.

Monday, August 1, 2011

WARNING: THIS POST CONTAINS AN EXCESSIVE AMOUNT OF POTTER.

These past couple of weeks have been quite amazing for me, which means that naturually they were consumed by everything to do with Harry Potter.

Seeing Matt (The Womping Willows), Lauren and JFF play in Old Bridge was the beginning of my HP journey. I got there a little late since the weather was absolutley horrible but I only missed a little of JFF's set and I was okay with that haha. There was this girl though, so annoying, kept trying to get me and everyone else to dance...like by dancing on them? Lol it was awkward. After JFF Lauren played and she sang a ton of her new songs off "The Prince's Tale" and they were so amazing, definitely her best. Then Womp (lol Matt) played and he was awesome of course. After the show I bought some merch including Lauren's album, her new shirt that says "my muggle friends just don't understand" which couldn't be more accurate, Matt's wizard party forever and JFF's deathly hallows shirt because I felt bad ha.

Two days later me and the fam headed to Orlando for Disney...and LEAKYCON. While driving in Virginia I actually saw Matt and Lauren driving on the road and made my dad honk at them so I could wave haha, and they also tweeted about it! When we finally got to Orlando the rents really didn't feel like doing so me and Heath decided to go Universal for the Wizarding World of Harry Potter. We did all the rides of course, had some butterbeer (which I actually loveeeed this time) and bought some souvenirs. I bought a Gryffindor sweather (YEAH!), Heather bought a dragon which we named Cho Chang and we each bought Pygmy Puffs (mine is Krum and hers is Grawp I believe), chocolate frogs (bought got Gryffindor) and cauldron cakes.

After doing Disney for a couple of days it was time for CHUNNUNNUNNUN...LEAKYCON. I had day passes for Thursday and Friday. As soon as I got there on Thursday I registered and then picked up my ticket for Deathly Hallows part 2 as I would be seeing an advance screening of it at 6:15 later that day. In the meantime I walked around the conference area, popped into the merch room and watched a live LeakyMug. And then, the movie. From the hotel we walked to the AMC theaters in Citywalk, which must have looked hysterical to the average muggle as we were all decked out in our robes and sweaters and carrying wands, grabbed our seats and 3D glasses and prepared ourselves for what was about to come.

As soon as the previews rolled I started crying. I loved it, I honestly think they ended it amazingly. The (kind of) opening scene after you see Voldemort get the Elder Wand with Snape looking over the grouds of Hogwarts oh my god, oh my god, like I really can't say anything else. I love that scene and then you see how much Hogwarts has changed and it's literally so heartbreaking. Helena Bonham Carter as Hermoine was flawless. The scene in Gringotts...ohh buddy, especially in 3D sooo crazy. Oh, but when Rupert and Dan both have the shirts off at the same time..yes. One of my favorite seens was when Neville brought the Trio back to Hogwarts, it was just nice seeing everyone again, Dean, Seamus, Luna, Cho, lol I missed them the last film. And then the craziness starts, Harry speaks to the Grey Lady while Ron and Hermione go into the Chamber of Secrets. Loved the kiss, finallllllly. I just wish Rupert didn't block it so much...rofl. The scene with the fiendfyre was absolutely terrifying, it was so well done. When Harry, Ron and Hermione run down to the boat house and only music is playing ugh it seriously makes me so emotional, I listen to the preview on iTunes all the time. Go. Now. It's "Courtyard Apocalypse". And now to Snape. I love him. I just fucking love him, especially after listening to Lauren Fairweather's "The Prince's Tale". His death really got to me. Oh yeah and by this point the whole theater was literally hyperventilating. No, but really and with only a wool sweater to wipe your nose on.. And then Snape's memories, forget it. It was just too much to handle. HE JUST LOVED HER that's all :((( It really made me mad though how people who haven't read the books (yeah I know, I can't believe it either) thought that it was implying that Snape was actually Harry's dad. Really? Like, Reeeeallly? Ugh, even a woman who came into Payless asked me about it. Don't worry,  I set her straight. Ooof and when Harry is about to die and his parents and Sirius and Lupin join him :( "You'll stay with me?" "Until the end" :( UNTIL THE VERY END HARRY, I PROMISE. And then when Harry is in the "in-between" with Dumbledore and Dumbledore says "Of course it's happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean that it is not real?" makes me burst into tears because that's how I feel about Harry Potter. It is real. Neville's a hero, Harry kills Voldemort. Victory. A lot of people had issues with the epilouge in the book and I loved it, I loved it in the book and the movie. It was crazy to see them old, which also made me super emotional. It's just nice to know that everything's okay.

Even after I left and walked back to the hotel I was in tears (walking behind Jason Munday and Aaron Nordyke may I add!) This was my life, Harry wasn't over and will never be over but now a chapter of it is. No more midnight premiers to go to, no more movie spoilers to look out for, no more epic soundtracks to hear for the first time and no more seeing that WB logo flash on the big screen with Hedwigs theme (or Lily's theme as the case in the last film).

After the movie there was an epic wrock victory party. I made friends with two Hufflepuffs and two Ravenclaws and we headed into the room where the concert was held. I was pretty close the first night as I watched Lauren again, JFF, Ministry of Magic and Alex Carpenter play his last show with The Remus Lupins. Totally cried.

The next day at Leaky I knew I wanted to buy a lot of merch so I had Heather come to the vendor room so she could see if she wanted anything and then bring my stuff back to the car haha. I bought a Harry and the Potters shirt, a Luke Conard shirt, Harry Potter Scene It, Harry Potter Clue and Dear Mr. Potter which is a wonderful book I've been wanting with letters and pictures from fans, it's so cool to see how many people are literally just like me. Then I walked around again and went to the Nerdfighter gathering and another LeakyMug which this time Evanna Lynch, who plays Luna, was at.

The last event I went to was Wizard Rock Night II: The Final Guitar Battle, I was literally front and center....but really...with like 3,000 people there.....yeah. I saw The Parselmouths, Gred and Forge, Hank Green, Tonks and the Aurors, Draco and the Malfoys, The Whomping Willows and Harry and the Potters perform. It was fucking magical to say the least. Hank made me cry while singing "Accio Deathly Hallows and I got Steph from Tonks' set list! Draco and the Malfoys were (was? lol just Brian) soooo good! Brian sang his song about Pansy Parkinson to the actual girl who plays Pansy Parkinson, Scarlett Byrne! Then Evanna Lynch danced with Matt while he play "Nargles" which was literally so funny and crazy, she kept doing the wrackspurt dance. And then...Harry and the Potters. I've been waiting to see Harry and the Potters since like 8th grade? I think that's right, and I was so pumped. They were so close I could touch them, but they touched me more. Haha, Joe stroked my face and Paul crowd surfed right on me. For their last last Evanna played bass and the Potter Puppet Pals guy came out and I got to touch the Harry Puppet. The whole crowed was chanting "Leakycon" and Melissa Anelli made a little speech and started crying and then I cried. I just wish I could have stayed for the whole thing. Leaky 2012 baby.

Now the most recent event! POTTERMORE. So on sunday, Harry Potter's birthday, I stayed up until 6 in the morning just to be sure I got in. I was ready, I had Sorcerer's Stone by my side and refreshed the page like crazy waiting for the clue. Finally it was there, I figured it out and found the magic clue and was able to register. I'm so so happy I got in the first night so now I don't have to worry about it. I'm so stoked to get started.

Allwaswell.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

downward fucking spiral. fuck all of you. a week away can't come soon enough.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Ain't Even Mad?

I broke my promise to myself. I said I wouldn't do it again until atleast after Florida. Things just stick in my head and me so angry though, whatever.

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Thought I forgot about you, huh?

WELP 19 days until Leakycon and you can say I'm pretttttty stoked. (<<<understatement of the year).

To prepare I am listening to massive amounts of Wizard Rock (as if I wouldn't anyway...), bought my midnight release ticket (which is actually, get this, a 6pm release ticket!!), and have bought numerous new merch items including a light up wand, Harry's glasses as earrings, a Gryffindor tie, a deathly hallows necklace, and the horcrux locket just to name a few.

I am also planning on going to a Whomping Willows and Lauren Fairweather wrock concert on July 8th to kick of my month of awesomeness. This will be my fourth time seeing them and Leaky will be my fifth. Yeah. Buddy. July 9th happens to be my Uncle's wedding. I bought a dress today and let's just say I'm less than thrilled about it. There were actually tears. Immediately following the wedding my parents, Heather and I will be on our way to Florida for a week of pure bliss. And by bliss I mean standing in crazy ass long lines in scorching heat. BUT I ain't even mad. This Disney/Universal/Leakycon trip shall be amazing, and gym shorts shall be worn. To end my July I am seeing Weezer at PNC, this deserves another "Yeah Buddy".

In other news I am going to see Matt & Kim again on Wednesday!!! BAHHHH!

OH and the "bros" had another "bro night"....Kind of upset since I've been wanting to do something all day and I rarely get off work and wasn't invited. WHATEVER.

The O.C.:Season 2: Episode 23 I thought Julie was about to kill Caleb, she didn't...yet. Summer just got prom queen! Yayy! Oof Zach got king, but he left! (he went to go meet George Lucas about his comic book). BUT Seth finally arrived and is now making a speech on how much he loves Summer and now they're kissinggggg. AND Ryan and Marissa are better. Prom is magical. FINALLY all is right.

NOTICE: It's 4 a.m so judge me on this post. I dare ya. (I'm also watching another episode).

UPDATE: Cal died. Shit. Not from Julie though, bad heart...and fell in a pool?

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Writing through clouded vision.

I just caught the last 15 minutes of Toy Story 3 and let me just say you'd think my dog just died or something the way my face is tear stained. It just made me think of when I saw it graduation day and all my friends going away to school and I just got really sentimental. Also, it's a sad ass fucking movie. I miss my friends a whole lot. I need them more then they need me, I'm lonely.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

Like a bolt of LIGHTNING.

 A survey I put together from bits and pieces of other surveys because most questions just suck.

Are you wearing jeans, shorts, sweatpants, or pajama pants?
sweats all da way.

Do you have a good relationship with your mother?
I like to think so.

If you had to get a piercing right now, what would it be?
MAH NOSE. Hoooop.

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
lol. kinda.............
   
Do you believe that there's good in everybody?
honestly, no. sadly.
  
Did you have a dream last night?
It was kinda like a sleep day dream. Payless was getting robbed and I was in charge and freaking out so Juan came up behind this guy and knocked him out with one of the shoe grabbing sticks. Yeah.
  
Could you spend a whole night with the last person you kissed?
I mean, maybe if I knew his name. Or what he looked like. college baby.
 
Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
If my dreams can come trueee.

Who always makes you feel better?
harry&ron&hermione.
   
Have you ever dyed your hair?
OH yeah. and again on wednesday. cant waaait.
 
What is the last thing you laughed really hard over?
Snoop getting slimed. lolwut.
   
How many times have you been to the ER for yourself?
I don't think it was the ER but I have ridden in an ambulance before.
  
Is "because i was drunk" a good enough excuse for you?
hellz yeah.
 
Have you ever burned yourself?
There's this family video of my on my like 4th birthday blowing out my birthday candles and I guess I got too close and everyone starts screaming "she burned herself! she burned herself" (Me and Tayl always quote that) but I really didn't. Everyone just freaked my out and I started crying haha. Anyway, yes, by a campfire spark...and it really hurt.
   
Where's the last place you went besides your house?
J-Town Diner's where itz att.
 
What's the last thing to make you upset?
Harry Potter tumblr pictures. Never ending weeps.

Would you ever get a tattoo?
I would have one right now if it wasn't for the rents.

Have you ever crawled through a window?
Oh yes, that's how to get in a locked house. It's climbing though, not crawling.
  
What woke you up today?
Don't Unplug Me.

What is something you disliked about your day?
Working 9 hours should do it.
      
Do you like when people play with your hair?
No. Stay away.
 
What are you doing tomorrow?
Working 9 hours. Again.
 
How much money did you spend today?
$12
 
Do you know any Spanish?
Ocho Meada (sounds like that) (eight and a half)

do you like lightning?
LIKE A BOLT OF LIGHTNING. ssssteel train. but yes.

have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
Barbie.
                      
what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
Probably my prom dress? I don't think that counts though.
 
favorite guilty pleasure?
phineas and ferb. oh and diary of a wimpy kid. loll.

Where was your default picture taken?
My family room. It has the most likes on it because it looks nothing like me. Oh. Truth.
   
Will next weekend be a good one?
YEAH BUDDYYY.
 
What are you looking forward to?
since you asked, tcnj this weekend, fun./steel train, pwII, matt & kim, florida/leakycon, deathly hallows pt. 2 (but also severely dreading it)

How many tattoos would you get?
3ish probably.
            
Why did your parents give you the name you have?
My grandpa kept calling my sister Taylor by the name Jodi because he liked it better. By the time I was born that name was stuck in my parents head.
       
When did you meet the last female you texted?
The day I was born <3

Have you ever kissed anyone within an hour of meeting them?
If I say yes will you judge me?
   
What are you freakishly obsessed with?
You have to ask?
       
Where EXACTLY were you when you entered 2011?
Hunter's with the biffles.
What is your main ring tone on your phone?
Cameras Remix - Matt & Kim

Whos your favorite redhead?
ronald bilius weasley.

Is your favorite food macaroni and cheese?
Never. Had. It.

Do you cry often?
Oh yes. :/
What's the last book you read?
Currently Reading: HP and the PoA and An Abundance of Katherines.
What's on your bedroom wall?
Harry Potter posters up the wazoooooo.

HOKAY DONE. Have a great day. KBYE.