A Variable.

I really don't think that people know how difficult a situation can really be unless them, themselves are thrusted into it. Sure I don't know what you're doing and how your life is fairing but that just means you sure as hell don't know anything about mine either. What I'm trying to lead into is that I really want to do something different with my life. Like desperately. However, there is a problem with that. I am not as I said, "thrusted" into opportunities where I can quickly adjust my life by adding a variable. See I do not have a "best friend roommate" or someone to walk to class with everyday or even a "more than a friend" person that can just change my life ever so slighty so that I feel like I'm doing something worthwhile and not the monotonous shit I'm used to. I'm lost, yeah, but I'm sick of people assuming that I am, even though I goddamn am. I don't want to need you or you or you. That is why I need a variable. I'm sick of just the constant.